God Bless The good ole’ USA….


It looks to the world like it is such a terrible time to be American.  Yet to many of us immigrants it is the place where we live. The birth place of our children and our grandchildren. The year 2016 will be a year that many people will never forget. With the current political climate and Presidential Election, how could we ever forget this year. For me 2016, will always stand out in my mind as the year I embraced this Country where I have lived for more than two decades. It will be remembered as the year I called America, home……..


As I write this blog, I can’t help but to remember the many years of ‘heimweh’ (homesickness) I have experienced over the years. I always thought my country was heaven, a land of paradise. My love for my country prevented me from becoming attached to any other country I visited. No wonder ‘heimweh’ was the first German word I spoke when I was an Aupair in Germany. Homesickness and nostalgia would continue to haunt me wherever I went. To me there was no where in the world like Barbados my Country…..


As I am older now and have seen my American children all grown up. My family members and love ones are all scattered across America. This is our Country now whether we embrace it or not. The opportunities and life we have here are far greater than what’s going on in America. To the world around us it looks terrible, the crime rate, police brutality, and the ills that plague this society are headline news. Social injustices seen everywhere. People are loosing their lives everyday because of ignorance and stupidity.


Yet, I see a bigger picture. America is invaded with Hatred. This ‘Hatred‘ is not limited to this Country alone, it is worldwide. There is the absence of love for each other. Humanity is suffering a terrible blow. No one loves any more. Yet this country was built and founded by dreamers, and it’s this resilience that has made America great, and I do believe this nation will rise up from the ashes. It’s possible, and it will when we embrace each other and respect our differences.image

If America is not working for you, you can always move away. If the State you live in is not working for you, relocate, there are 52 beautiful States. Hatred will never work for you. Try loving today….Life is too short to be anything other than happy. 


Freedom: Are we really free? Thinking out loud…..


imageIs it the political climate?

Why are the Presidential nominees getting more attention than any other time in history?

Why are your minds controlled? Why are you giving so much attention to what always was?  Please don’t tell me there is now more police brutality, more racism than ever. If you feel this way what evidence do you have to support this? Images?

What I see now are cameras everywhere; lights, cameras, action….everything being recorded for us to see. If this is the proof, I rest my case. Yet, who controls the media who controls what we see?  We all know that only images that they want us to focus on ever really make it into our living rooms. We also know that what we focus on grows. Or do we know that? Our words are also very powerful. What are we saying to each other, what are we anticipating will happen in the near future?


My weird thinking sees something different. I see the forces and systems that have separated us for so long falling. Fear is setting in…..

The walls of religion and the separatism of one group of people  that tend to think they are chosen and judgment will fall on everyone else is falling.

The races are inter-mingling or should I call it interracial.com.

The gap between who is at the top of the wealth pyramid is closing in. Suddenly sisters are billionaires. More minorities now than ever are on that list. Sorry that my definition of minority is different than yours. Cause minority to me includes the struggling Caucasian single mom who sold cup cakes for a living, minority to me is not just a race of people. Minority to me is the less fortunate. The dreamers…..

Ignorance and hatred are taking over the world and what are we doing about it?


We must boycott the agenda of those whose job is to continue to separate us and focus more on loving each other. We must not spread their propaganda and let them use us freely to spread and contaminate each other’s brains with hatred.

We must examine our relationship with each other. Let the truth be told, we are filled with envy, jealousy, hatred and capitalism and greed continues to separate us.

We can stand on picket lines and defend ‘our right to be free’ and treated equally, yet we don’t even love and respect ourselves, each other. Killing of innocent lives is wrong…..there is no way around this…. but after 300 years of being free what have we done to show solidarity? What have we done to unite with each other….

Sorry my blog wont get too much likes, cause I feed my soul, and my soul is colorless…My soul is that of a woman wondering why the Human Race, the most intelligent species on Planet earth can’t seem to grasp the concept of Impermanence, the concept of of Love. Love for all, Love for our planet, Love for each other. Is it because it’s politically correct to hate people that don’t look like yourself?

Or is it simply the fear- factor? That we are fearful of what this world would be like if we all unite? Maybe then we would have to become our brother’s keeper like the good book says….We would be accountable for each other….we would be forced to distribute the wealth…the walls that separate us would be forced to fall…and hatred and greed would be eradicated.


Are you really free to choose love?

I am…..

I choose to love despite of…..

I choose to love freely…..

I choose to have joy and peace in my heart…

Please free me from my fuck-ups, cause there are many.   (When you know better you do better…Maya Angelou)

And I will continue to read your positive status quotes on Social Media. I may even share them. Yet I refuse to watch the Political Boxing game where one candidate unveils and another with their own agenda, and they fill us with the promise of ‘a better America’…and the food we eat is killing us…the greed and accumulation of things and more things does nothing for our bleeding souls dying to be comforted by love, compassion, kindness…. and somewhere in a lab another I-phone is being created, with more sophistication than the last, and in another place a child is hungry, and which one gets our attention?

We have become obsessed with our goals, what our lives should look like..more abundance…

And Hatred is brewing…..and we are in a deep sleep…..

And I am living my life, grateful for each awakening moment….and my soul loves…


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How full is your cup?


What happens when you thought you seen it all? You’ve cried and prayed, fought battle after battle, and just when you thought ‘I can finally breathe again’, you find yourself in the midst of another battle……death…illnesses…and once again there is nothing left to do but put on those resilience muscles and dive in deep, be that person that God made you to be, keep your head up high, and know that ‘this too shall past’….

I have worked as a Certified Nursing Assistant for many years now. Whenever I would apply for a new position I was proud to list the skills that differ me from other candidates, genuine compassion being my greatest strength. I love and care about people, I always have. It didn’t matter what their skin color was or economic back ground people are people. I was born this way…..I was proud to make a difference. I have worked with people with many  illnesses and became very knowledgeable and gained many valuable lessons from each individual.

Now  I am in the battle of caring for a family member, It’s a fight like none I have ever been apart of.  Suddenly life is scary, life is complicated, the knowledge, skill and experiences I have previously gained do prepare me, but this is so personal, this has hit home in a big way.

Doctors appointments, hospital visits, being that advocate, this can be so overwhelming. I have become obsessed with educating myself on diseases and illnesses and in doing so have found out that all these big name diseases point to the same thing, self neglect….people are not taking care of themselves. People are so busy trying to gain the whole world that and everyone is just loosing their soul…

What really is going on? So today I am asking what really is in your cup? What are you dealing with? How full is this cup?  We can look all around us and get so deeply involved with everything that is happening, it is so easy to loose focus, it’s so easy to loose oneself….it may be church work, that degree that you are working towards, that overwhelming job (just over broke) the kids, the family, your latest obsession…..or just life…

Is it worth it?

I am urging you to live life, exercise, stay in shape, eat a well- balanced meal. There is not enough nutrition in our food supply system anymore. Eat more fruits and vegetables as well as your supplements. Stock up on your vitamin d intake, calcium, iron. So many people are suffering from reflux and digestive issues. Introduce probiotics to help assist your digestive track. Drink lots of water, purify your mind, think positive thoughts, feel good, live good. Know when to take a break, go on vacation.

I know people are focused and goal oriented and every wants to be be wealthy these days, so many abundance tutorials and teachings all over….

And everyone’s cup is so full…..


We know now what we are, but know not what we will be...William Shakespeare

R.I.P to Hatred and the true evils that are robbing us….#Lovematters#



Beautiful Barbados July 2016